Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Death, Having Fun?

First MJ...

Then Max...

And now Hazel...


Happy now Death?

Seems like you're on a killing spree...


MAL

You Are Not Alone

Sorry bout another MJ post, but here goes... Just lemme gloat over his death for awhile ya?~ xD

"You Are Not Alone"

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

All I wanna say is that...

My friends!!! You who are lonely!!! You who feel like your friends have all disappeared, never to be seen again...

Know this, that you are not alone!!! xD


MAL
:-P

Monday, June 29, 2009

Rest In Peace, King of Pop

I got the news when I was away... Terence had sms-ed me and told me that apparently a certain MJ had kantoi-ed... Not Jordan though...

I thought... "No way..."

But well, everyone dies...

This man though, whatever people say about him, was a legend... A misunderstood one...

When the news came up a few years back about MJ being accused of molestation, to tell the truth, I was angry... Not that year of course, but when i understood it...

People started making fun of him, all kinds of rumours were made up...

Well, guess what? This man entertained four generations of people and inspired dances from all walks of life...

This same guy told people about the children of the world through "Heal the World"

Environment through "Earth Song"

Even convicts through "They Don't Really Care About Us"

His dances were copied by millions of people worldwide...

His love for children was misunderstood...

And... Ultimately that drove him to the grave...


I think I can understand why some people refuse to become famous...

To build up a career in fame, it takes a lifetime of effort...

To tear it down, it only takes one rumour...


Rest in peace, Michael Jackson...


You will never be forgotten, 'cause the dances keep deteriorating... Just take Soul'ja Boy and "Crank Dat" for instance... I rest my case...


MAL
:-P

Thursday, June 25, 2009

I'm Gonna Trust...

I don't know why...

I can't see why in the world You're putting me through this...

And I can say, I can ACT as if I don't care, but I really do...

But You know what Father?

It's gonna be tough, but You know what?

I gonna hold my head up high and i'm gonna try to not care anymore...

You know why?

'Cause i'm gonna trust in You, Father...

Some day, i'll see the whole point in this...

I'm gonna trust You, Father...

It's part of the deal :)

So give me faith...

Help me trust in You...



MAL
:-D

Monday, June 22, 2009

Time Invested

Time invested in a book = amount we get from that book
Time invested in a certain subject = amount we gain from that subject
Time invested in a person = how much we care for that person

Thing to ponder about... If I spend most of my time with something, chances are, that is what I care about most...
Consequently, if I spend the least of my time with something, chances are, that is what I don't really care about...
Is that true?

In that case, have I been lying to myself?

Yet, if I keep thinking about something but never spend my time doing it, do I really care about it?

Man, this is confusing...

But I think I get it... Affinity and attraction is not solely based on a moment in time...
It's based on the bonding built upon through time spent together, is it not?

If so, i'm guilty... I would understand if I had no REALLY REALLY close friends (not that I don't, I have many xD)
Because I fear that I frighten them off by harassing them too much... And because, I am, as the term my friend used, a "nomad"... I jump around from group to group, leaving one to join another...

But no, I will learn. I must.

To show love, spend time with those you love...
Yet, do not allow them to be uncomfortable in your presence...
Or wait... Those who love you in return will NOT be uncomfortable around you...
Or will they?
I'm not sure anymore...

I guess...
I'll have to spend more time with my family and friends...
I know that those I love, they cannot annoy me...
But do I annoy them?
I'm sure I do, sometimes...
But I have to know for sure...
This would affect how I'd deal with people in the future...
Hmmm...

Father, help me...


MAL
:-/

Sunday, June 21, 2009

27 Years... This is what Love is...

If I were to ask you... "Who do you think of when I say this one word: LOVE"? Who would it be?

The most politically correct answer for me would probably be : GOD

The answer some kepoh friends would want to hear would be : Some girl or another's name

Yet, I digress... In all honesty, when I hear the word LOVE, somehow or other I would think of the two people who have shown me, through their love for each other, what it means to love...

To give without demanding to receive in return
To love without demanding to be loved in return
To care without demanding to be cared for in return
To pray without demanding to be prayed for in return
To give in, not expecting to be given into in return...
To never hold a grudge, knowing that love is greater any grudge in the world...

I still remember when Daddy when to Hagaii Institute for a month worth of training away from home. I think that was the first time Daddy was away from Mummy for so long since they got married... I remember how Mummy started learning how to use Skype, MSN, and all other tools to call Daddy, and how she would rush from office to home, from home to office, all the time rushing to see the computer screen. If she had to go upstairs, she would call out, "Malcolm, help me watch the computer screen and tell me if Daddy comes online, k?" I remember that they were both online, talking to each other most, if not the whole day, everyday... Mummy was so good that she even learnt how to INSTALL Skype on her office computer and meddle with the screens on Live Messenger... And all these because Skype was better for talking, MSN was better for sending files... (I guess they saved about a million bucks on phone calls xD) Errr but of which Daddy spent later on buying souvenirs for us anyway, so it didn't really make much of a difference... xD

I also remember a time when Daddy had to go alone to Sarawak for a Brigade Council Meeting... I remember him sighing before the trip about how it's so far and how he had to be there for nearly a week, and how Mummy couldn't go along... I remember how he told the story of not enjoying the sights and sounds as he kept thinking of home, and of Mummy... But best of all, I remember how he went, on the morning of the flight, to the airport, and knowing that his flight was in the evening, asked if he could go back earlier. And once again, I remember that they said yes, but he would have to pay abit more. Guess what? He was back on the peninsular in time for lunch.

I remember 2 years back when Mummy finally cashed in her honeymoon, 25 years after Mum and Dad got married... I remember how Mummy and Daddy used to jokingly quarrel about how Daddy "cheated" Mummy out of a honeymoon, and how Daddy quietly went and booked a holiday for two in Bali... I remember how they arranged for Koko, myself and Girlie to be sent around for tuitions and whatnot, and I remember how Mummy used to call back home during the trip and tell us where they were going and what they saw, and how they kept buying stuff for us... And, they kept taking photos so we would be able to see what they saw when they returned...

I can remember, and I do still see that Daddy never spends a cent for himself, but never withholds any from us, his family... Daddy would never bring home any anger piled up from work, but would rather smile the moment he reaches home, really showing us how it should be when we see the ones we love... Mummy, on the other hand, plans her time so well, never wastes her own time on anything, but would willingly spend the whole night, going without sleep, to sort out her children's books, patch up a pair of pants or whatnot...

Are they perfect? Definitely not... If they were, they would not be my parents, sad to say...

But you know what? It doesn't matter... When I see them, here's what I see...

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails.

Here's to Mummy and Daddy, and to 27 years of blissful matrimony...

When I see the both of you, I see love :) I thank you for being the parents that I would not change for any persin in the world, and I thank you both for showing me what it is to love, and for silently making me realize that I would have a long way to go, and that I would have to wait for God's timing... But also for making me realize that God's timing - It's perfect...

If a picture's worth a thousand words, these are worth quite a few :) Enjoy...







Mummy and Daddy... I love you both... More than you'll ever know!!!


MAL
:-P

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Jehovah Rapha

Exodus 15:26 
26
… I am the Lord who heals you.”

When the Israelites first came out from Eygpt, this was the first compound name that the Lord had revealed to them.

In faith, I claim that Father, You are the Lord that heals...

By Your stripes, I am healed...
By Your stripes, my family is healed...
By Your stripes, my friends are healed...

In You, Father, I place my trust. Let Your healing fall upon this land and upon those who require it...

I thank you Father, that "Nothing shall by any means hurt me", and "No weapon formed against me shall prosper".

I claim all these in Your name.

Amen.


MAL
:-P

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

It's Over...

Need I say more?

FINALLY finished my Advanced Functions exam today =D

Guess that signals the end of ICPU for me, and the end of this short stint in college, away from those whom I know, away from friends and family...

Looking back at what i've been through, I wonder... HOW IN THE WORLD did I get through this? The longest period of which I ever was away from home (as in the buiding as well as family) was only 5 days for the National level prefects' camp in 2006...

I miss 45 Jalan Melawati, but more than ever, I missed my family...

I remember the first day I moved in to Casa, thinking to myself "Okay Malcolm, here's the plan... You imagine this is like any other camp you've been to, only slightly longer... You go in there, get yourself known to virtually everyone, and enjoy yourself!!!"

I know I enjoyed myself... Whether or not I got myself known, I honestly don't know... :)

What did I learn form this course? Lots...
  1. There are some people greater than you (well, at SOMETHING or another, you can't beat them all, no? :P)
  2. You cannot rush things, just make sure you do it in the right way with the right timing and keep your fingers crossed!
  3. You win some, you lose some... Some things are just not meant to be, but always remember there's always something better coming out from it for you!!! (You don't always score perfect marks now, do you? xD)
  4. Family first is true :) But it's always nice to have a group of close friends who watch your back and look out for you, be your family when the original family is absent (I love you guys, you know who you are!!! xD)
  5. It's always nice to find a balance, and then strike it!!!
  6. But most importantly... I found out that I could never do anything alone... I had always depended on someone or another... And when I relied solely on myself... I failed miserably... Weird... And so I learnt... There is One who loves you so much that He would be there whenever you need Him... So, I learnt... To depend on Him...

In freedom... Spending some time with friends... I think that's a good idea :)

You know that people say "friends are like jewels"?

I beg to differ...

Jewels can be bought...

Friends?

Priceless...



MAL
:-P