Tuesday, September 15, 2009

My Choice, Once Again

Hey guys!!! Sorry for not updating my blog in awhile!!! Gomenasai...

So anyway!!! Here goes!!! I'm in Canada!!! Woohoo!!! xD

And for those wondering, i'm doing great!!! Met a group of new close buddies... Met new pals, new family, new home...

And yet... As koko once said "the more things change, the more they remain the same" (dunno where he got THAT from xD)... I've come from a Batu Pahat to... A town where education is one of the main industries (check), A country in which the people have problems with the people in the country underneath it... (check X alot) xD... Sounds pretty much like home to me =)

Yeah, I guess I still miss mum, dad, koko and girlie (THANK GOD FOR SKYPE!!! WOOHOO!!! xD)

So yeah, i'm doing good =) God's been helping every step of the way... It's been super obvious =)


So yeah, back to the main post...


I realized one thing today...
It's like a feeling, a sense...
deja vu, people say?
more like some kind of a cycle, if you please...

When I first step foot into kindergarten, I was a nobody... All I had was the name of a son, and being the heir of dad, people would look and expect much of me...
All the rest was up to me...
When I first step foot into primary school, I was, again, a nobody... All I had was the name of a brother, and being as such, people looked, and expected more of me...
All the rest was up to me...
When I first step foot into secondary school, I was, once again, a nobody... All I had was the name of a brother, one before me, and being as such, people looked, and expected alot of me...
All the rest was up to me...
And then came Taylor's College... When I first got in, again, I was nobody... All I depended on was the fact that I was one of "the 6", and I depended on my scholarship, and people looked, and expected alot of me...
All the rest was up to me...
And now, i'm in University... And the only thing that I held on to... Once again was the fact that I was different... That I was a boy sent by his government halfway around the globe, from a country that had never seen snow to study here... And people looked, and once again, they expect...

And now...

I guess the rest is up to me...

Once again I am at crossroads...

Once again I choose whether to follow His word, or to be "just the guy over there"...

And once again I realize that the only reason i've ever gotten so far is because I made that right choice... And because He was there for me...

And so... Again...

I make that same choice...

Romans 12: 2 ‘Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.’

Today, I depend on You again Father... Help me to stand by You, and help me to follow You, not the world... I know that You have, and that You will continue to =)


MAL
:-P

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Suddenly

I got a phone call this afternoon...

It was my sponsors...

Apparently, my flight is to be on the 3rd, the next day...

And suddenly...


Suddenly things started to move very quickly...
Suddenly Canada didn't seem as near on the map as it used to...
Suddenly "Tales of Legendia" didn't seem nearly as important as before...
Suddenly a dental checkup was imminent...
Suddenly a visit to the local barber "Uncle Robert" was in place...
Suddenly I didn't have enough stationery at home...
Suddenly I realized the love of an 80-year old grandmother who would rush down by bus to see me off...
Suddenly I realized I wouldn't be up to spend another weekend in KL...
Suddenly I realized the many friends which I would loved to have seen otherwise would probably not be seen...
Suddenly home once again turned into a variable location...
Suddenly I realized that I might be going to a place very much like where I came from...
Suddenly Pak Sitam's "Sup Kambing" was something I had to have...
Suddenly I had more stuff to bring than I ever had noticed...
Suddenly staying away from mummy, daddy, koko and girlie seemed like just another bad nightmare...
Suddenly mummy and daddy both feel very "sien"... (koko and Amanda do too...)
Suddenly leaving Malaysia for such a long time seems almost... Possible...
Suddenly 23 kilos isn't such a great amount of luggage space after all...
Suddenly I have a bank book and withdrawing all the money to put somewhere else is logical...
Suddenly the bedsheet + comforter + pillow set offered by the Uni doesn't look too bad...
Suddenly whoever turns up to send me off doesn't really matter anymore...
Suddenly KL seems like just next door...
Suddenly Skype becomes a very close buddy to me and thus my name will more often than not be malchong.1stbp
Suddenly I realized that all this while God's been behind the whole picture, leading and guiding me through everything...
Suddenly writing letters for Amanda doesn't feel so boring...
Suddenly arguing with koko over who gets to use the toilet becomes fun...
Suddenly not getting to hug mummy and daddy seems like something I dread the most...
Suddenly not being able to drive seems upsetting...
Suddenly giving hugs and kisses to mummy and daddy seems like something i'm gonna miss the most...
Suddenly I wish more than anything that AirAsia goes to Canada...
Suddenly...

Things happen to sudden...


Mummy, Daddy, Koko, Girlie... I know i'm gonna miss you all sooooooooo much... But know that as long as there's Skype and MSN, there'll always be me whenever you need to see me... I'm starting to miss you all even before I leave...

Daddy, I know that i'm gonna miss most the times I talk to you, the times I need advice, and the times I need to have someone to model after... Know that one of the reasons I mix around so well is that I got it from you... Know that the sole reason I can drive properly now is that you willingly sat beside me each and every time I drove, patiently telling me of my wrongs and teaching me the finer points of driving... Know that i'm so glad that you don't scold me while i'm driving, but rather wait for the event to pass and then let me know, so as not to distract me from my driving... Know that in all things mechanical, electronical, plumbing or electrical, I am basically a noob... But having a pro as a father made me very much a pro to pretty much anyone else =) Thanks for listening to our music, learning our lingo, teaching more than anything that "love covers over a multitude of sin"... Thanks for understanding and backing me up anytime I needed it, thanks for supporting me in anything I do, and thank you Daddy, for being the most practical but yet loving father anyone could ever wish for... Thank you, Daddy... And I know i've probably said this many many times but... I love you Daddy...

Mummy, thank you... I know that should they have instead said that "Malcolm, penerbangan anda adalah... MALAM INI!", the first person I would call is you... And I know that even so I would not be worried because you would leave everything and rush home immediately, and we would get everything packed and ready anyway... Mummy, I know that the person to most clearly express her "sien-ness" would be you... Yet Mummy, remember that the same Hands which kept me safe and well 19 years of my life would be the same Hands which will guide me through the rest of my years... Thank you Mummy for knowing EXACTLY what is happening to each and every one of us, and thank you for knowing exactly what to do to remedy each and every situation... Thank you for asking us do whatever you ask us to do... I know it is for our own good... Thank you for demanding hugs and kisses from each and every one of us, and thank you for always reminding us that we're special, and that we're greater than we'll ever dare to believe... Thank you for sleepless nights working on our clothes, sewing up buttons, sewing up our pockets (yes, I still remember) or just praying for us... And... I know i've said this time and time again but... I love you Mummy...

Koko, thanks for being the brother I always know I have to stay... Thanks for being the one to complain to whenever we face a problem involving certain issues and thank you for always looking out and caring for me, although sometimes you pretend that you never do... Thank you for explaining technical stuff to me when it comes to studies, and thank you for sharing your life with me... (Thanks for teaching me DOTA xD) Thanks for being such a good roommate to me for about as long as I can remember and thanks for all those Greek sessions where everyone else would go blur while we talked to each other =) Don't know if i've ever said this much, ko, but... I love you Koko =)

Girlie, thanks for being the sister in the family... Thanks for taking control and being the deciding factor, the veto power in many of the hard decisions we make as a family xD Thank you for acting as if you don't care, but quietly help out and show in your actions that you mean otherwise... Thank you for being a joy and happiness to our family and thank you for lighting up the mood whenever you are happy... Thank you for insisting on doing certain stuff that you think is absolutely neccessary and thank you for standing up for what you think is right... Thanks also for being our fashion advisor and the "green" one at home... Don't think i've told you this much either but... I love you Girlie =)

And suddenly I realize that my post is super-long...
And suddenly I realize...

I'm gonna miss you all sooooooooo much...

And suddenly...


Things happen too sudden...


And suddenly, signing off for probably the last in a looooooooong time from Malaysia is...
MAL
:-P

Sunday, August 30, 2009

My Country

My country, my homeland, the land of my own flesh and blood...
My people, they live as one, forward heading...
With blessings, happiness, gifts given by the One above...
Long live our king!

With blessings, happiness, gifts given by the One above...
Long live our king!



Happy Birthday, Malaysia...

You're my first country, my only one, i'd never trade you for any other...

Never!

I LOVE YOU MALAYSIA!!! =)



MAL
:-P

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Thriller?

Hmmm... I really don't know what to make of this... Watch this first...


And then, this...



Err... I think... Nuff said xD


MAL
:-P

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

A dedication to you, or you, or you, or you... You know who you are =)

Hey...

God never said it's gonna be easy...
But He never meant it to be hard until it kills ya...

God never said it's gonna be simple...
But He said He'll walk beside you all the way, and carry you when you can't take it...

God never said it's always gonna be a bed of roses...
But He knows what flowers are the best for you and what the future holds...

God never said that the path you would have to go through would be straight and simple...
But He lights up your paths before you and He knows which path would be best for you anyway...

God never said following Him would be easy...
But He said that if you follow Him, He'd make you "fishers of man"...

And we always wish for happy endings...
But we always cry when we see that not coming to pass...
And we go "Why, God?"
But He knows the best for us...
And He cares, for ALL those involved anyway...

Trust Him...
If He leads you to this, He'll lead you through this...
I can't tell you exactly what to do, but remember that He loves you anyway...
And He knows exactly how you actually feel...

Remain faithful to God, but don't neglect others because of worry anyway...
He wouldn't want you to worry...
And He understands...

So, Trust Him...


MAL
:-P

Sunday, August 2, 2009

It Takes...

It takes a death for us to realize and cherish the value of life...

It takes silence to make us cherish the value of words...

It takes a lie to make us understand the importance of truth...

It takes war for us to understand the value of peace...

It takes reality to help us treasure the value of imagination...

It takes a word to make us regret a sentence we said...

It takes animals to make us think like humans...

It takes children to make us think more maturely...

It takes hatred to make us love...

It takes a second for us to ponder about things that happen in years...

It takes sadness to make us long for happiness...

It takes incapacitation to make us aware of the importance of freedom...

It takes something that is broken to teach us not to destroy smething that is whole...

It takes a loser to tell a winner that he ain't so great...

It takes law and judgement to treasure the extent and importance of grace...

It takes stress for us to fully experience comfort...

It takes sickness for us to love our health...

It takes...



It takes the wisdom of others to realize my own foolishness...



And it takes you to help me figure out who I am...


MAL

Sick

It's sad...

Somehow or rather, it would seem that our world is currently revolved around sickness...
Enshrouded with plagues,
Overpowered by pestilence...

Every corner you turn, there'd be a man sneezing,
Another woman coughing...

Every other corner, a lady diagnosed with cancer,
A man, influenza...

A trail of broken hearts,
Death? Another he carts...

Every other day we hear of new and improved sicknesses
Sickness of the heart
Sickness of the mind
Sickness of the body
Sickness of the soul

And suddenly all that glitters is not gold...

For within our earthly paradise...

Death, we see it rise...

But when will we see

That sickness, that death...


It's nothing compared to the sickness in the heart of man?
Anger
Hatred
Jealousy
Bitterness
Unforgiveness
Inability to let go


Matthew 22:36-40
36"Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?" 37Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'b]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[b] 38This is the first and greatest commandment. 39And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'c]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[c] 40All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."

1 Corinthians 15:55
O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?

For death is not what most of us fear...

In truth, alot of us fear living...

Love.
Love the well, love the sick
Love the humble, love the meek
Love the rich and love the poor
Love the people of the world.


MAL
:-P