Count Your Blessings...

I find it to be a matter of interest when I see people doing stuff that personally have never done, or ever have any plan to do... As in... EVER!!!

Okay before you think i've gone loco due to excessive exposure to soething or other (mainly the pretty high exchange rates and expensive food DDDD=), i'm actually talkking about those guys...

Hmmmmm... Okay details details...

I was walking along River Thames yesterday (personal request, i've always wanted to walk by there with family since the day i flew over London...), when there were... I've honestly no idea what you call them... Buskers? Anyway, they were street performers, but they were doing stuff like mime or just being a statue kind of thing, all in the FREEZING COLD!!! Yes, it's nothing close to some of the weather i've endured during Walks on campus, but hey... Working so many hours a day just standing still in the cold? Just for a couple of cents so that I can get something to eat? Now THAT... Is sad =(

I laud their bravery, their courage and determination to stand firm and stand still in spite of the strongest winds, but much more than that...

They tell another story...

What they do there, it adds to the city's beauty and splendour...
What they do, it may be boring...
What they do, it may be their life... Their entire story...

But... One reminder... EVERYONE, no matter how insignificant it may seem, has a part to play...
From a *ehem* "sanitational engineer" (ask Canadian locals what this means) to the tycoon right at the top, to politicians to the beggars...

They give a city the different perspectives, and that's what makes a place, a place...

EVERYONE influence something or another...
Treasure one another...

Cause...

In the end, it's one another that we have, and that makes up what we see.

Just some ranting =P (Now don't say don't spew weird analogies and messages anymore!!! xD)


MAL
:-P

Ahhh, It's good to be (Half) Home...

Now before you go about asking "Haaaaaa??? You go back Malaysia haaa??? =OOO", Nope, i'm not in Malaysia... In fact, i'm in a land I barely even know, other than in name...

HEY GUYS!!!! MALCOLM HERE!!! LONG TIME NO SEEE!!!! xDDDDD

And i'm...

*drumroll*

LIVE!!! FROM ENGLAND!!! =DDDD

At this moment i'm with 3/4 of my family (missing koko, he's busy back in Malaysia... Oh well, a doctor's gotta do what a doctor's gotta do... D=)

And you know what they say, "Home is where the heart is..."

I guess it's hard to say where my heart actually is right now... It's so confusing... I'm in a land that I know nothing (not much anyway) about, my friends are now spread all over (focusing in North America and South-East Asia mostly...)

But hey, i'm soooooooooooooooooo elated to see part of my family again... You have nooooo idea how much I miss them =)


Anyway, that was just a short update =) I'll try and keep you guys updated =D

I hope to see most over you over the break, k? =D Miss u all toooooooo!!!


MAL
:-P

P/S: Shoutout to all the new readers!!! HEY THERE!!! xDDDD WELCOME LOLZ XD
And to the other guys, sorry I took sooooo long between posts, been so busy... I'll try and update more regularly k? *Wink* xD (Oh and shoutout to Lilian, thankx for reminding me to write again lolz xD)

A Loooooooong Time? Nah, Just A Second, Dude!

"Love seems the swiftest, but it is the slowest of all growths. No man or woman really knows what perfect love is until they have been married a quarter of a century. "
- Mark Twain

A tremendous trend I have seen ever since I stepped foot onto this land...

A land so beautiful, yet in deeper sense, not so...

A land so huge, yet in retrospect, not so...

A land so blessed... Or is it?

How many broken families i've seen...

How many people, children barely in their teens witness a separations, events with such a lasting impacts that they never recover? That they never comprehend the true meaning of love? Of perseverance? Of holding on and being with someone who's a friend, one who would stick with you through thick and thin? One whom you could get angry with and then come back to and apologize, and say that you love, and mean it with all your heart?

How many of these children... Crave this kind of love? Search everywhere, even in all the wrong places for this love?

Why do words like "Oh, I can't live with her anymore", "Oh I can't stand him", "He takes advantage of me", "I don't love him anymore"... WHY... WHY do these words appear? Why do they even exist?

I cry out on behalf of those who are victims... I cry with you...

I am blessed... I truly am...

Mummy always loved, and always loves Daddy, and Daddy always loved, and always loves Mummy...

I am thankful, and always will be for this day, 26 years ago, when in a small church, halfway across the globe from where I am now, two lives were intertwined in holy matrimony...

Two lives which unknowingly, have always been teaching me to hold on to what I believe in... To love unconditionally and to wait for God's calling in everything I do...

To be responsible in all I do, to never fear, but trust... To know that there's One above who has planned my whole life ahead of me, to believe that in all I go through, He knows best...

And above all...

To love =)

To Mummy and Daddy...

Cheers! Because of love, Kerana cinta, Ying wei ai =D

I love you Daddy, I love you Mummy...

I always will =)

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!!!

MAL

:-P

The End? What Do We Do Now? =O

There's all this hype about how the world's gonna end in the year 2012... (influenced by 2012, the movie I went to watch with my seniors... Btw, i must say, not bad movie...)

So, honestly, here's what I think about it...

Ok honestly now...

Really...

I think...

NAH!!! Not gonna happen, sorry... xD Not at least till I get my degree from vet school hahahaha xD

Okay let's be serious now...

Inasmuch as don't believe everything from that show, it got me thinking...

And it made me realize one thing, one thing I should always practice... (ALL of us for that matter...)

Live everyday as if it were your last day on this earth...

Life is... Not as long as a lot of us would want it to be... I mean, anything could happen to anyone, at anytime...

So go ahead! Tell your parents that you love them... Tell that friend of yours that you love him/her... Tell your neighbours you love them in spite of their loud parties every night and their crazy drinking habits...

If you've never done it (or in a loooong time),Give your mum and dad a hug... Give your friend a hug, say sorry for those things that you've wronged them with, forgive them for those things that they've wronged YOU with...

Call that guy you haven't talked to in years because of some silly thing between you and that guy...

Appreciate those around you, those far away, those nearby...

And most importantly, spend everyday as if it were the last...

I feel like doing that...

MAL

:-P

P/S : Shoutout to all of you readers out there!!! I love you!!! *Group hug!!!* xD

I Never Did Realize...

Never did realize think it that way...

I mean yeah, sure, I always thought that you know "what you do now will influence the future", yodda yodda yodda, blah blah blah...

But today it actually struck me...

I can do something...

I can actually change the world...

I mean think about it...

How many people in the world have no hope, have no vision? How many people in the world fall into corruption? How many people in the world know not love? How many people in the world are orphans, victims of AIDS? How many people in the world slit their wrists, jump off buildings due to depression? How many people in the world sell themselves to feel like they "belong"? How many kids turn to wrong avenues because their parents went through a divorce? How many people try to get intoxicated every night to be one of the "in" group? How many people seek? How many people try to become human "do"ings instead of human "be"ings?

How many people need God?

I know I did...

And I know I still do...

And more so, I know I always will...

Do something.

MAL

:-P

Today was pretty weird...

Got up, walked around and suddenly it dawned upon me...


I MISS HOME...


Especially since half of the time, half the people here don't understand half a word i'm saying...
Especially since half of the year, half of the day is half of the time back home...
Especially since half of the week, half of the people are half-dressed with half-decent clothing...
Especially since half of the night, half of the residents are half-drunk with half-screaming, half-yelling voices...
Especially since at half-time, half the people are already half-drunk and the other half asleep...


The other half...

They're okay =D


But really now...

I need to physically see someone who can speak manglish to me...

When you miss someplace, it seems to fly farther and farther out of reach...

It's at times like these where I wish I could take out a pair of ruby slippers (not that it's my fashion taste or anything...) And knock them together and say "there's no place like home, there's no place like home"

Oh and I miss Chicken rice... And dim sum... And nasi goreng kampung... Oh and Sup kambing... And... I better stop, i'm salivating over the library comps already...


MAL
:-P

P/S: To Canadians reading this... It's probably not you I was referring to... It's just some people who tarnish your good reputation... I do like it here =) I really do =D

The Awesomeness of Your Creation...

he sat there today, in awe and in fear...

he read through Your word, and so did he hear...

"Your people", he read, from a scream and a tear...

You brought to Yourself, and You, You drew near...

so many rules, he never did keep...

in so many ways, his death could You seek...

no way he'd come close, what he sowed, he'd reap...

but yet for this boy, in all ways, You'd pick...

it caught his eye, how far they'd go...

how much they'd take but then still show...

that though they saw still would they grumble...

and so in turn the heavens rumbled...

he looked back his life and all he's done...

and thanked Him for sending down His Son...

that in his place the Son be punished...

and at the cross cry "It is finished!"

and as he sits now typing down...

he knows he'll never get a frown...

for where more sin, more grace abounds...

he looks outside...

and...

Snow came down...

How awesome is Your creation, oh God my Father =D

MAL

:-P

Kids! =)

Haven't been around for awhile... Well, been rather busy with exams and quizzes and assignments and stuff... So sorrryyyyy bout dat *gomenasaiiiii*

But anyway...

It's over! Woohooo! Midterms I mean =)

So well, i've been doing rather good actually, for those of you who are asking =) I've been enjoying myself, making lots of new friends, experiencing new stuff, and basically yeah, having lots of fun =)

So okay! Halloween!

Yeah so well, before anything happened, I was pretty worried about the idea of this "Halloween" thingy... Didn't really like the idea of celebrating the belief in the occult and stuff... But well, I learnt something this year =)

Halloween, in all its' scariness...

It's a merchandising ploy... A big one, and nothing more, from what I see...

Don't get me wrong, but well, when it comes to the crux of it, it's like... Christmas trees, Santa Claus and The Easter Bunny...

Aaaaaaanyway, myself, Rob, Will, Noor, Sara and Patrick took part in this operation called "Trick or Eat", a program by "MealXchange" to gather non-perishable food items for the local food bank...

It was pretty fun, but really the thing that struck me was this...

The kids =)

As we went about collecting food items, kids were going round doing the regular job of "trick or treat"ing, collecting sweets from people around their neighbourhoods...

I don't know why, but every time I saw a kid walking pass, I smiled... I guess it's the fact that these kids had costumes on, or the fact that they're so young and lovable =)

Pat mentioned how kids get so scared at the decorations (of which some people actually go all-out doing...) And it was fun seeing the children avoid Patrick and his ??? costume...

This morning's church service included the dedication of Jamie Strickland's son to the Lord... He was sleeping soundly, even on the arms of the pastor, and again, that made me go "awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww" inside xD

Kids, really, they are cute =)

And that brings me to late last night, when some of us were sitting there in my tower playing "the game of LIFE"... Pat and I were so serious about it, and sometimes even a little upset over how the other 3 were not paying attention, but rather fiddling around with cameras, talking loudly, making weird bawling noises when they lost money and stuff... It was fun...

But one thing I learnt from all of that...

Somewhere...

It might be deep inside, but it's there...

Somewhere deep inside us...

There's our childhood...

Sometimes we just wanna say "grow up"

Or sometimes, we just can't...

What can I say?

We still love kids =) Or just being one =D

MAL

:-P

Because I owe the blog... Big time...

Yup, I do... And I owe all of you back home an update, a well deserved one of how i've been so far xD

Hey all!!! Life's been treating me good, lots of friends, lots of activities, lots of quizzes, exams, labs and assignments, lots of fun basically xD

Lots of stuff's happened since I last wrote... (Mostly to do with going here and there, visiting old friends, making new ones... xD)

Anyway, it's been fun hanging around with different people, making friends and renewing old ones...

A thought crosses my mind...

Is it really fair to hang out with different people, and leave out the others whom I haven't seen for a long time? My seniors, I haven't really been spending much time with them... And THEY were the ones who helped me get settled in, and even let me bunk in during my first day in Canada...

That does it, i've gotta get their MSN addresses... I think I gotta hang out with them a little more...

Fire alarms can save lives, and yet the same fire alarms can cause quite alot of deep anguish and sorrow...

2 days ago the fire alarm rang... At 6 in the morning!!!

Tonight it rang again, at 1am... And apparently the drunkard who vandalized it also managed to destroy the fire alarm system... Looks like it's gonna be a loooooooong night...

Home's pretty far when seen from the other side of the globe... And you know what they say about "you don't really know what you've got till it's gone"? They - were right =)

A message to certain friends and to anyone this applies to...

Everything happens for a reason... And everything that doesn't? That's for a reason as well... One day you'll look back and you'll say "Oh, THAT's why that didn't happen then", or "Oh, that's why it DID happen then"... So no worries, smile xD

(relating to the issue, i'll never forget a reminder to myself...)

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Worked out fine i hope =)

Isn't it funny how things are such opposites from what it should be sometimes? Never thought i'd see the day where i'd be happy to hear an accent from "forsaken land"-ian xD

And how the word "party" here brings to mind the idea of drunk guys and disgusting stuff?

I'm pretty sure I had parties when I was younger, and those definitely did not include booze... Seems the world is changing...

Or is it just me?

Well, whatever it is, it seems...

Times are changing...

MAL

:-P

P/S: Shoutout to GCCG xD and to family xD Oh and oso to buddies old and new looking at this post!!! xD Love you guys!!! All of you =D

Reminiscence of a distant past...

Walking in the shopping centre, looking at children, their parents by their sides...
Reminds me of a time when I would rush mummy and daddy out of fear that we'll get locked in... (I wonder if they even have a name for such a fear? Oh well...)

Searching through websites, I found out that the Boys' Brigade in Canada was famous till the mid 1980s...
Reminds me of days where I would move in precise coordination, stand with undetered attention and walk in unmatched unison with a whole crowd of brothers and sisters... And never think I would ever miss BB as much as I do now...
And a handshake from a fellow Boy brought back deep pride from inside of me... I always will be proud to have been a Boy, spelt with a capital B...

Queueing up in line at the Bullring, staring at the menu and finally picking "curry"...
I realized how much, how far I have traversed, literally to the other end of the world... And yet, as Dorothy in the "Wizard of Oz" says, and rightly so as she claps her slippers together, "There's no place like home... There's no place like home..."

Playing volleyball in the pouring rain...
Reminds me of a time when I never excelled and in fact was below par in any sport known to mankind... And a time when team Bismarck became the turning point of sports in my life... I remember squash, I remember class football games... I remember the goal posts... I remember managerial duties, and I remember, most of all... High School...

Hearing voices of family members over Skype...
I hear also the little quarrels and squabbles of Amanda and Koko, the noises that make home what it always is etched in my memory as... I hear the voice of Nothing... I hear the complains that Amanda always seem to have against Koko... And I hear the reason Amanda gets upset... I still think most of the time Koko actually asks for it too xD Indeed, it's as they say... Home... It's where the heart is =)

Learning about the Raya break in Malaysia...
I remember times when I would make a large hue and cry over having to write "ponteng letters" for Girlie, but without fail would draft the letter and make sure it was put onto our dining table before breakfast... And I remember Daddy trusting and signing it, whatever I wrote... I always joked that some day i'll write a letter saying that "Saya hanya tulis surat ini oleh kerana saya tau cikgu takde bace punyeeeee" in my worst possible Malay xD Or something to that effect anyway =)

Walking out for "makan" with my ang mo friends...
I remember the nights where Terence, Rui Heng, yes even Jun Zhang would walk out in search of food all around Casa... And I remember when Naiz and Yas eventually took over when RH and JZ became... Ummm... Occupied xD... I remember 79 cents... I remember late night jokes and trading stories with RH... I remember Terence stealing my faster internet line xD... I remember... "MU coach good ah?" (Well technically not...) xD... And I remember loving every moment of all these memories...

Lectures...
I remember days where senyuman serta tawaan yang tidak henti-henti terkeluar daripada sekalian liang rongga rakan-rakan sekelas melihat gelagat guru kelas Matematik kami yang tersayang =) I remember the fun times and all the jokes shared... Mostly with Iylia and Deedee... And I remember guru kami asyik mengenakan mereka... Akan tetapi tidak saya... Mengapakah demikian? Mungkin... Tidak akan saya tahu... Oh well... =P

And as I walk day-to-day...
I remember the One who's brought me so far, the One who has led me all the way here... And the One who has loved me right from day one, and has shown His favour upon me... Nowhere, nowhere I would be without Him... I'm sure of that...

And so as I think back on all these times...

If I had to it all over again...


I would =)




MAL
:-P

Agak Chaotic? Ntah la xD

Hmmmm...

"The more things change, the more they remain the same"... Koko once (okay more than once) told me that... Well, what can I say? It stuck =) (And I realize I would get a zero in this assignment for not quoting using the correct format, MLA or APA xD)

Guelph is beautiful =)

As i've asked many of my ang mo friends so far, "is all of Canada as beautiful as Guelph?" I guess "sometimes" so says Julia "I have to wake up and just remind myself that i'm in Canada!!!" *hands in the sky* (again i'll get zero xD)

Maple trees can be barely 100 metres from each other yet one can start to turn red and wilt already while another is still as green as the first day I stepped foot onto this University... I wonder... What causes this natural phenomena? God is great =)

It's amazing... "We haven't seen each other for over 4 months yet we still miss and want to see each other so much...", so says Yasmin (once more, another quote) Clearly we've formed more than just a simple friendship, Yas, Naiz, Terence, myself... Still missing a couple of lunch kaki though... *shoutout to Sasi, Ammy, and occasional guests Iyliaaaaaaaa and Keng xD*

Again it's interesting how it's warmer when it rains than when it does not... Unheard of in Malaysia... Daddy explains on how the clouds cause affect the wind and the temperature...

And the Ontario Science Centre is pretty cool... I'll go there again sometime =)

*ONTARIO SCIENCE CENTRE IS GIVING FREE ENTRY TO PUBLIC THIS WEEKEND, SATURDAY 26TH SEPTEMBER 2009!!!* =O Yup, true true!!! Take advantage, Toronto-ians...

Man... That was chaotic and did not really have a progression... Ah well, that's life xD

MAL

:-P

P/S: Honestly though... Go check out Ontario Science Centre this Saturday... Free doh!!! =O

One-sided? Unconditional? Love =)

Yesterday and today as I walked the streets of Toronto, a thought and realization suddenly struck me...

I know it probably isn't as great a realization that would shock nations, and probably some might say it's been heard far too often...

But...

I realized again Father...

I thought, and was again shocked at Your love...

I realized that Your love is so great that You would show Your love to us, even before we even bothered to know You...

But the thing that hit me most is this fact...

You love us, knowing that this would probably never be returned...

You would give up everything for us, and most of the time we would not even notice, and if we did, we would not even care...

You would spend hours showing us the extent of Your love, how much You treasure us...

But we would not even spare the few minutes to read Your word and pray...

You would send Your Holy Spirit and friends to comfort us for hours, even days when we're down...

But we would not even spare a word or two when we succeed to thank You...

But Father, I think I get what it means to You... Probably not, but i'll try anyway...

To love those around me, and to those whom I love, unconditionally...

Unconditional acceptance, wether or not that love and acceptance would be returned...

To smile when those I love smile...

To be happy when those I love are happy...

To be sad when those I love are sad...

And to be glad when the ones I love are glad...

Wether or not love is returned is immaterial, ay Father?

Hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers over all wrongs. – Proverbs 10:12

I guess the thing I wanna say is thank You for Your love...

And teach me how to love the way You do =)

MAL

:-P

My Choice, Once Again

Hey guys!!! Sorry for not updating my blog in awhile!!! Gomenasai...

So anyway!!! Here goes!!! I'm in Canada!!! Woohoo!!! xD

And for those wondering, i'm doing great!!! Met a group of new close buddies... Met new pals, new family, new home...

And yet... As koko once said "the more things change, the more they remain the same" (dunno where he got THAT from xD)... I've come from a Batu Pahat to... A town where education is one of the main industries (check), A country in which the people have problems with the people in the country underneath it... (check X alot) xD... Sounds pretty much like home to me =)

Yeah, I guess I still miss mum, dad, koko and girlie (THANK GOD FOR SKYPE!!! WOOHOO!!! xD)

So yeah, i'm doing good =) God's been helping every step of the way... It's been super obvious =)

So yeah, back to the main post...

I realized one thing today...

It's like a feeling, a sense...

deja vu, people say?

more like some kind of a cycle, if you please...

When I first step foot into kindergarten, I was a nobody... All I had was the name of a son, and being the heir of dad, people would look and expect much of me...

All the rest was up to me...

When I first step foot into primary school, I was, again, a nobody... All I had was the name of a brother, and being as such, people looked, and expected more of me...

All the rest was up to me...

When I first step foot into secondary school, I was, once again, a nobody... All I had was the name of a brother, one before me, and being as such, people looked, and expected alot of me...

All the rest was up to me...

And then came Taylor's College... When I first got in, again, I was nobody... All I depended on was the fact that I was one of "the 6", and I depended on my scholarship, and people looked, and expected alot of me...

All the rest was up to me...

And now, i'm in University... And the only thing that I held on to... Once again was the fact that I was different... That I was a boy sent by his government halfway around the globe, from a country that had never seen snow to study here... And people looked, and once again, they expect...

And now...

I guess the rest is up to me...

Once again I am at crossroads...

Once again I choose whether to follow His word, or to be "just the guy over there"...

And once again I realize that the only reason i've ever gotten so far is because I made that right choice... And because He was there for me...

And so... Again...

I make that same choice...

Romans 12: 2 ‘Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.’

Today, I depend on You again Father... Help me to stand by You, and help me to follow You, not the world... I know that You have, and that You will continue to =)

MAL

:-P

Suddenly

I got a phone call this afternoon...

It was my sponsors...

Apparently, my flight is to be on the 3rd, the next day...

And suddenly...

Suddenly things started to move very quickly...

Suddenly Canada didn't seem as near on the map as it used to...

Suddenly "Tales of Legendia" didn't seem nearly as important as before...

Suddenly a dental checkup was imminent...

Suddenly a visit to the local barber "Uncle Robert" was in place...

Suddenly I didn't have enough stationery at home...

Suddenly I realized the love of an 80-year old grandmother who would rush down by bus to see me off...

Suddenly I realized I wouldn't be up to spend another weekend in KL...

Suddenly I realized the many friends which I would loved to have seen otherwise would probably not be seen...

Suddenly home once again turned into a variable location...

Suddenly I realized that I might be going to a place very much like where I came from...

Suddenly Pak Sitam's "Sup Kambing" was something I had to have...

Suddenly I had more stuff to bring than I ever had noticed...

Suddenly staying away from mummy, daddy, koko and girlie seemed like just another bad nightmare...

Suddenly mummy and daddy both feel very "sien"... (koko and Amanda do too...)

Suddenly leaving Malaysia for such a long time seems almost... Possible...

Suddenly 23 kilos isn't such a great amount of luggage space after all...

Suddenly I have a bank book and withdrawing all the money to put somewhere else is logical...

Suddenly the bedsheet + comforter + pillow set offered by the Uni doesn't look too bad...

Suddenly whoever turns up to send me off doesn't really matter anymore...

Suddenly KL seems like just next door...

Suddenly Skype becomes a very close buddy to me and thus my name will more often than not be malchong.1stbp

Suddenly I realized that all this while God's been behind the whole picture, leading and guiding me through everything...

Suddenly writing letters for Amanda doesn't feel so boring...

Suddenly arguing with koko over who gets to use the toilet becomes fun...

Suddenly not getting to hug mummy and daddy seems like something I dread the most...

Suddenly not being able to drive seems upsetting...

Suddenly giving hugs and kisses to mummy and daddy seems like something i'm gonna miss the most...

Suddenly I wish more than anything that AirAsia goes to Canada...

Suddenly...

Things happen to sudden...

Mummy, Daddy, Koko, Girlie... I know i'm gonna miss you all sooooooooo much... But know that as long as there's Skype and MSN, there'll always be me whenever you need to see me... I'm starting to miss you all even before I leave...

Daddy, I know that i'm gonna miss most the times I talk to you, the times I need advice, and the times I need to have someone to model after... Know that one of the reasons I mix around so well is that I got it from you... Know that the sole reason I can drive properly now is that you willingly sat beside me each and every time I drove, patiently telling me of my wrongs and teaching me the finer points of driving... Know that i'm so glad that you don't scold me while i'm driving, but rather wait for the event to pass and then let me know, so as not to distract me from my driving... Know that in all things mechanical, electronical, plumbing or electrical, I am basically a noob... But having a pro as a father made me very much a pro to pretty much anyone else =) Thanks for listening to our music, learning our lingo, teaching more than anything that "love covers over a multitude of sin"... Thanks for understanding and backing me up anytime I needed it, thanks for supporting me in anything I do, and thank you Daddy, for being the most practical but yet loving father anyone could ever wish for... Thank you, Daddy... And I know i've probably said this many many times but... I love you Daddy...

Mummy, thank you... I know that should they have instead said that "Malcolm, penerbangan anda adalah... MALAM INI!", the first person I would call is you... And I know that even so I would not be worried because you would leave everything and rush home immediately, and we would get everything packed and ready anyway... Mummy, I know that the person to most clearly express her "sien-ness" would be you... Yet Mummy, remember that the same Hands which kept me safe and well 19 years of my life would be the same Hands which will guide me through the rest of my years... Thank you Mummy for knowing EXACTLY what is happening to each and every one of us, and thank you for knowing exactly what to do to remedy each and every situation... Thank you for asking us do whatever you ask us to do... I know it is for our own good... Thank you for demanding hugs and kisses from each and every one of us, and thank you for always reminding us that we're special, and that we're greater than we'll ever dare to believe... Thank you for sleepless nights working on our clothes, sewing up buttons, sewing up our pockets (yes, I still remember) or just praying for us... And... I know i've said this time and time again but... I love you Mummy...

Koko, thanks for being the brother I always know I have to stay... Thanks for being the one to complain to whenever we face a problem involving certain issues and thank you for always looking out and caring for me, although sometimes you pretend that you never do... Thank you for explaining technical stuff to me when it comes to studies, and thank you for sharing your life with me... (Thanks for teaching me DOTA xD) Thanks for being such a good roommate to me for about as long as I can remember and thanks for all those Greek sessions where everyone else would go blur while we talked to each other =) Don't know if i've ever said this much, ko, but... I love you Koko =)

Girlie, thanks for being the sister in the family... Thanks for taking control and being the deciding factor, the veto power in many of the hard decisions we make as a family xD Thank you for acting as if you don't care, but quietly help out and show in your actions that you mean otherwise... Thank you for being a joy and happiness to our family and thank you for lighting up the mood whenever you are happy... Thank you for insisting on doing certain stuff that you think is absolutely neccessary and thank you for standing up for what you think is right... Thanks also for being our fashion advisor and the "green" one at home... Don't think i've told you this much either but... I love you Girlie =)

And suddenly I realize that my post is super-long...

And suddenly I realize...

I'm gonna miss you all sooooooooo much...

And suddenly...

Things happen too sudden...

And suddenly, signing off for probably the last in a looooooooong time from Malaysia is...

MAL

:-P

My Country

My country, my homeland, the land of my own flesh and blood...
My people, they live as one, forward heading...
With blessings, happiness, gifts given by the One above...
Long live our king!

With blessings, happiness, gifts given by the One above...
Long live our king!



Happy Birthday, Malaysia...

You're my first country, my only one, i'd never trade you for any other...

Never!

I LOVE YOU MALAYSIA!!! =)



MAL
:-P

Thriller?

Hmmm... I really don't know what to make of this... Watch this first...

And then, this...

Err... I think... Nuff said xD

MAL

:-P

A dedication to you, or you, or you, or you... You know who you are =)

Hey...

God never said it's gonna be easy...

But He never meant it to be hard until it kills ya...

God never said it's gonna be simple...

But He said He'll walk beside you all the way, and carry you when you can't take it...

God never said it's always gonna be a bed of roses...

But He knows what flowers are the best for you and what the future holds...

God never said that the path you would have to go through would be straight and simple...

But He lights up your paths before you and He knows which path would be best for you anyway...

God never said following Him would be easy...

But He said that if you follow Him, He'd make you "fishers of man"...

And we always wish for happy endings...

But we always cry when we see that not coming to pass...

And we go "Why, God?"

But He knows the best for us...

And He cares, for ALL those involved anyway...

Trust Him...

If He leads you to this, He'll lead you through this...

I can't tell you exactly what to do, but remember that He loves you anyway...

And He knows exactly how you actually feel...

Remain faithful to God, but don't neglect others because of worry anyway...

He wouldn't want you to worry...

And He understands...

So, Trust Him...

MAL

:-P

It Takes...

It takes a death for us to realize and cherish the value of life...

It takes silence to make us cherish the value of words...

It takes a lie to make us understand the importance of truth...

It takes war for us to understand the value of peace...

It takes reality to help us treasure the value of imagination...

It takes a word to make us regret a sentence we said...

It takes animals to make us think like humans...

It takes children to make us think more maturely...

It takes hatred to make us love...

It takes a second for us to ponder about things that happen in years...

It takes sadness to make us long for happiness...

It takes incapacitation to make us aware of the importance of freedom...

It takes something that is broken to teach us not to destroy smething that is whole...

It takes a loser to tell a winner that he ain't so great...

It takes law and judgement to treasure the extent and importance of grace...

It takes stress for us to fully experience comfort...

It takes sickness for us to love our health...

It takes...

It takes the wisdom of others to realize my own foolishness...

And it takes you to help me figure out who I am...

MAL

Sick

It's sad...

Somehow or rather, it would seem that our world is currently revolved around sickness...

Enshrouded with plagues,

Overpowered by pestilence...

Every corner you turn, there'd be a man sneezing,

Another woman coughing...

Every other corner, a lady diagnosed with cancer,

A man, influenza...

A trail of broken hearts,

Death? Another he carts...

Every other day we hear of new and improved sicknesses

Sickness of the heart

Sickness of the mind

Sickness of the body

Sickness of the soul

And suddenly all that glitters is not gold...

For within our earthly paradise...

Death, we see it rise...

But when will we see

That sickness, that death...

It's nothing compared to the sickness in the heart of man?

Anger

Hatred

Jealousy

Bitterness

Unforgiveness

Inability to let go

Matthew 22:36-40

³⁶"Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?" ³⁷Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'^{b]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[b]} ³⁸This is the first and greatest commandment. ³⁹And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'^{c]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[c]} ⁴⁰All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."

1 Corinthians 15:55

O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?

For death is not what most of us fear...

In truth, alot of us fear living...

Love.

Love the well, love the sick

Love the humble, love the meek

Love the rich and love the poor

Love the people of the world.

MAL

:-P

A... Story?

It was a sunny afternoon. One that would do terrible injustice to the terrors of which I was bound to see the few minutes thereafter. Yes, I was in a training camp for army hopefuls. And yes, I was trained not to flinch at the sight of death. And yes, my country was in a state of unrest. But I was still a boy. And nothing I had ever experienced could ever have prepared me for the ordeal I would have to face...

It all seemed... A blur now... So far... Yet... Almost as if... It was just yesterday when it happened...

I distinctly remember a gleam of joy, of pure ecstacy that day as I walked out of the academy hall. Rafa'el, or "Raffy" as we'd call him, was signalling to me to join him, his grin stretching from ear to ear. With a mock salute, Raffy called out "sir" as I approached. Playing along, I gave him a salute back, trying to keep my face still as I quickly pulled my hand down and gave him a friendly punch on his stomach. The next few minutes were full of laughter and joy as Raffy chased me around camp, hopelessly trying to return the favour. I was always the better runner, years of running round the fields being the reason... I always was the troublemaker, the one the discipline master could count on to punish whenever something went wrong. The training did me good.

The chase was abruptly halted when we heard the loud coughs from a man to our east. Commander Georg, accompanied by his lovely daughter Catherine, were visibly amused by our display as both tried to hide their laughter between deep breaths and, in Cathy's case, a small handkerchief. Commander G put his hands in the air as he said "I give up. Even after completing commando training, you STILL act like kids..." Muttering to himself, he retreated to another camp, leaving Cathy alone with the two of us. Her smile, as I would never forget, had the essence of one who understood. Her eyes of ebony betrayed a sense of kindness, one only rivaled by her soft, warm hands that could comfort even the most frightened of children on the streets. In her sweet, soft voice, she said "hey commandos, no hug for a beautiful old friend of yours?" Raffy answered "Beautiful is right", to which I answered "old is right", earning a big slap aimed at my face, of which I dodged, gladly to receive on my shoulder instead. Fun and games... It all became a blur right after that... Everything happened... so fast...

A scream was heard from the other end of the garrison. In our celebration, we were lulled into a false sense of security, a sense of greatness... So we thought we were commandos now... We were soon to learn one thing. "So what?"

A group of rebels, simply known as the "Crimson Moon" with their leader codenamed "Werewolf" somehow managed to infiltrate our defenses on this day, the day that haunts me, even to this day. Everything happened so fast. I saw a canister roll towards Raffy, and then smoke... I saw Raffy, while stretching his hand out getting shot, right in the back of his head. I saw Commander G, shot between the eyes. And I saw... I saw...

They took Cathy... As the words formed in my mouth, I took a blow to my head. I suspected they never came out...

Cath...

Cathy...

All I recall after that was months of heavy drills, sweat, and more often than not, albeit silently, tears. I had failed. Not only did I fail to save Raffy and Commander G, I failed the one I secretly admired, Cathy. But worse of all, I failed because I survived, and they did not.

I grew quickly in the ranks. Maybe it was due to my skill and causing trouble, which I had channeled into work instead. Maybe it was the fact that I was a much better marksman than any other. But probably, it was due to anger, rage, and the fact that I had nothing to lose.

Before I knew it, I was captain of the guard, Assistant Commander-in-Chief, Commanding officer of the commandos. I was the leader of an army, ten thousand strong, against an enemy of which I had a blood fued with.

Then one day the news came in. 18 miles north-northeast of my main barracks, intelligence discovered whatever remains of "Crimson Moon". There was, however, a note with it. They had wished to surrender.

Rage filled my heart. My anger burned within me, the repeated words scorched my very being. "Surrender", they say. No way. Not a chance, not in this life. Ignoring orders to stand down, I took up arms and rushed into the enemy hideout, right into the heart of the "Crimson Moon".

Fueled by revenge, I was in a frenzy. A mad frenzy. Anyone in the base who stood in my way I slaughtered. Women or children, young or old. The very sight of those in crimson was like a stench to my very being. No longer would the world have to see any other, dressed in robes of crimson. I would destroy these beasts. Every one of them.

Working my way through, I finally approached a large atrium. In it a lone man stood, and old man, age taking hold of him, but unmistakenly the leader of "Crimson Moon". There I stood, face to face with the Werewolf. Unarmed, the put his hands in the air as a sign of surrender.

One shot, in between the eyes. Another, right behind his head.

Revenge.

Paid.

In an instant, everything was over. I had my revenge. I laughed aloud, expecting full joy to finally return to my life...

And then there was silence.

Reality struck.

Now what?

I had my revenge. True enough. But at what price? Dare I call them monsters? On my hands were the blood of innocent women, children...

It dawned upon me. If anyone was a monster...

I was.

And what now? I had my revenge. Now what?

I cupped my hands and put my head in them as I knelt and wept.

And then, a sharp pain in my back. Everything turned black...

And was it just me, or did I hear a sweet, soft voice calling out to me? Dressed in white, with a lovely smile and eyes of ebony?

I don't know...

I guess I never will...

MAL

:-P

Clones...

Hehehehe HELLO GUYS!!!!! Sorry for being out-of-commision for so long...

But hey... MALCOLM'S BACK!!! With another one for you guys to think about...

The question that people for years have been questioning, the same question that's been playing in my mind for awhile now and that I can put in one word...

Clones.

So what about them, you ask?

Precisely. What about them?

We all know that research has been conducted, and for all we know, humans have also been cloned (albeit illegally) throughout the past few years...

And I know that cloning is probably against most of our beliefs...

But...

When the day finally does come when clones are to be accepted worldwide...

What will we classify them as?

Look at it this way... With prejudice, kids with HIV/AIDS are already considered outcasts, and as Ryan White (Born HIV+) said before "I mean, i'm surprised they even have dogs nowadays", just because someone's different, many people don't look at them like they would otherwise...

When clones are finally made...

Can they be considered human?

Or are they... Different?

If so, how?

Take away the knowledge that one is a clone of another, and what do you have?

A human deep down... Or another soul-less being?

If we don't bring forth a life, we can't take it away...

I... Am against cloning...

Sorry, i still prefer things the way they are... As of yet...

Whatever happens...

Prejudice is ignorance...

MAL

:-P

My First Love

Today I am reminded of the one whom I first loved.

Today I am reminded of the first, and only one who has ever loved me with such an unspoken intensity.

Today I am reminded of how useless and meaningless I was...

But yet I am reminded of how with such love, I could scrape through the worst times in life.

Today I am reminded that in my joys, I often forget my first love...

But yet I am reminded time and again, after straying from my love, that my first love is always there with open arms.

Today I remember what my love has done for me and am ashamed that when I am troubled, the number I seem to dial last is my first love.

And today I remember that...

In my turbulence...

In my ebullience...

You were always there...

Reaching out to me, calling out to me, waiting for me...

I would say that "oh if i could turn back the clock"... And so on...

But you know me better.

And though it's almost certain that i'll repeat it,

You still love me

And you always will.

I thank for reminding me again

You are the One I love.

Nothing else matters.

MAL

:-P

Smile =)

Smile

Music by : Charlie Chaplin

Smile

tho' your heart is aching,

Smile
Even though its breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky-

You'll get by,

If you Smile

through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through- For you.
Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev'ry trace of sadness,
Altho' a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

Forgive me, I got this song stuck in my head since last night (okay more like this morning =D)...

But you know, thinking it over, I realize that I had told myself something very important...

Something that I... Might have overlooked in the course of this one year...

I remember the one day that I was upset and disturbed because of certain issues, and I brought it along with me to school...

I remember how throughtout the day I noticed the prefects being in a terrible mood, not performing well, and how it seemed everything was out of place...

And then realization struck...

"When you are sad, when you are downcast, the people who love you, or you love most would be most affected..."

From then on I told myself never to be downcast, at least not in front of those whom I love...

Or have I overlooked that, for a moment?

Guys, if ever I have been upset, downcast or just simply not in the right mood...

Whenever it was, please forgive me? Thank you anyway :)

I echo the songwriters in the last two lines, of which I think are more true then ever...

~You'll find that life is still worthwhile,

If you just smile.~

MAL

:-P

P/S: Sorry to make it seem repetitive, but this song was Michael Jackson's favourite, not any of his own songs... It got stuck in my head when Jermaine Jackson, MJ's brother sang it during MJ's memorial service... There it is, my final tribute to MJ (Did someone just go *whew*? =_=)

My Future, Your Hands

Father Lord...

I thank You...

'Cause You'll never let me down...

And You pick me up when I am...

'Cause Your grace is sufficient for me...

And Your mercy is limitless...

'Cause Your love is everlasting...

And Father, You are love...

'Cause You are my comforter...

And You comfort me when I feel alone...

'Cause You are my refuge...

And Father, You are my fortress...

'Cause You are my wisdom...

And You give me Your knowledge and Your Word...

'Cause You are my strength...

And that is what You give to carry on...

'Cause You are my light...

And You make the paths clear for me to see...

'Cause You know my future...

You have planned it all, from the very beginning...

And Father...

You are my future...

Help me Father to never forget that.

MAL

Heal The World

"Heal The World"

Michael Jackson

There's A Place In

Your Heart

And I Know That It Is Love

And This Place Could

Be Much

Brighter Than Tomorrow

And If You Really Try

You'll Find There's No Need

To Cry

In This Place You'll Feel

There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways

To Get There

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Little Space

Make A Better Place...

Heal The World

Make It A Better Place

For You And For Me

And The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Better Place

For You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why

There's A Love That

Cannot Lie

Love Is Strong

It Only Cares For

Joyful Giving

If We Try

We Shall See

In This Bliss

We Cannot Feel

Fear Or Dread

We Stop Existing And

Start Living

Then It Feels That Always

Love's Enough For

Us Growing

So Make A Better World

Make A Better World...

Heal The World

Make It A Better Place

For You And For Me

And The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Better Place

For You And For Me

And The Dream We Were

Conceived In

Will Reveal A Joyful Face

And The World We

Once Believed In

Will Shine Again In Grace

Then Why Do We Keep

Strangling Life

Wound This Earth

Crucify Its Soul

Though It's Plain To See

This World Is Heavenly

Be God's Glow

We Could Fly So High

Let Our Spirits Never Die

In My Heart

I Feel You Are All

My Brothers

Create A World With

No Fear

Together We'll Cry

Happy Tears

See The Nations Turn

Their Swords

Into Plowshares

We Could Really Get There

If You Cared Enough

For The Living

Make A Little Space

To Make A Better Place...

Heal The World

Make It A Better Place

For You And For Me

And The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Better Place

For You And For Me

Heal The World

Make It A Better Place

For You And For Me

And The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Better Place

For You And For Me

Heal The World

Make It A Better Place

For You And For Me

And The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Better Place

For You And For Me

There Are People Dying

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Better Place

For You And For Me

There Are People Dying

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Better Place

For You And For Me

You And For Me

You And For Me

You And For Me

You And For Me

You And For Me

You And For Me

You And For Me

You And For Me

You And For Me

You And For Me

You And For Me

He got it right there... Lets make it a better place for everyone...

My final post about MJ...

Rest in peace, King of Pop... May God bless you...

MAL

:-P